flogger

I'm selling a dress on ebay, it's looking pretty lonely atm:

http://www.ebay.co.uk/itm/150706336858?ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT&_trksid=p3984.m1555.l2649#ht_500wt_1203

I will be selling bits and bobs over the next few weeks so keep an eye out!

PDA?

I'd rather vom.

I had a rant about this to one of my close 'newly single' friend earlier. Public Displays of Affection. I don't mean the romantic stroke of the face, kiss on the cheek or gentle clasping of one another's hands, no I mean the awkward (for the spectators and participants) of the ever lasting tongue inspecting slobber match that happens when you are about 15 and you have no idea of what you are doing.
When I was at work two weeks ago this happened. RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF RIVER ISLAND. The couple were a few years younger than myself, so when I turned round to put back some rejects I wanted to cringe/the ground to swallow me/to erase everything that I had just seen, but sadly it was too late. Without exaggeration, these kids were 'making out' right on the shop floor. I am all for young love and the 'can't keep your hands off of each other' stage, but please there is a time and a place and River Island is not one of them.
Another incident happened this morning, I was walking to my lesson when I saw some year 10's sharing their morning dose of bodily fluids. Not exactly the thing I like to wake up to.
Like I said, I think showing that you love each other in an affectionate manner is great; however you have to pick your gestures and your timings correctly. Teens nowadays (I sound like an old lady), it would seem that they feel pressure to act in such an overtly sexualised manner, in order to prove something to their peers, it is as if your first boyfriend/girlfriend is a trophy of teenage accomplishment and you have to brag about it at every opportunity. Most people would think that I am purely being sour at the fact that I don't have a boyfriend, I'm not, yes it would be nice to have someone, but I am happy to spend time with my friends and concentrate on school work. I just think that some people need to get a room to do what ever they need to do to relieve their teenage urges. VOM.

the rest is still unwritten...

Yesterday I had my Kent uni interview & test.

I can safely say I am not going to Kent anymore.
Floods of tears start now.

Kent has always been joint number one with Bournemouth, but yesterday there was something about Kent that I was drawn to, I know it will change when I go to the Bournemouth interview/open day.

Apart from myself, the one thing that I know has let me down is that a girl from my year also was invited to the same interview/test day, she is so much better than me. It was a rare occurrence that we were both invited, never mind both receiving offers. Which makes me even more upset/annoyed as she doesn't want to go to Kent, she wants to go to Sheffield!!!!

Well I know my future is coming fast, which is incredibly scary. I will be happy once  I start my journalism studies, until then who knows...

I've noticed a few more followers to my blog too, so thanks! xxxx

drink me.

I did my Alice in wonderland shoot today, although it didn't go to plan. I forgot the battery to my camera (leaving it in the charger), and was forced to taking photos on my phone. I am going to do the shoot again tomorrow; however I still thought I'd give you all a peak of them so far. Let me know what you think!

the grass is always greener on the other side...

I had my Nottingham Trent test today. Yes, when I sat down my knees and hand were shaking and my face went hotter and hotter. I was overwhelmed by the whole situation. Within seconds of it starting the girl next to me was aggressively typing away getting both parts of the test done within 25 minutes of being there, whilst I sat there barely being able to press the keys, because my hands felt as if they were going to give way. I think it went so badly. It is such a shame as well as I quite liked it there. Although I was reassured by the guy sitting next to me, who also finished at the same time as me. GAHHHH. I have done so badly :(

On the other hand....
On my way home from Nottingham I decided to check my emails, and I realised I saw a name that I recognised......It was from the Bournemouth's programme administrator... asking me to go to the activity day!!!!! Literally had a grin as big as the Chesire cat the whole journey home. The only thing now is that I have to compose a portfolio of my work, but I have no idea of what to put in it! 19th December here I come!

Secret santa

My friends and I are doing secret santa this year and I have no idea about what to get the person that I am buying for. If any one has suggestions please let me know, there is a budget of £15-£20 and gift exchange takes place on the 15th of December. 

Friend (who is unbelievably hard to buy for):

Plays saxophone

Is a life guard

Likes Ted baker

Likes Hollister/Abercrombie

Can drive

Laura Ashley

if i could, then i would.

Tomorrow I have my Nottingham trent admissions test and I am so scared, so I thought that it was important that I get some blog posts done to catch up with my absence lately and to try and take my mind off of the fact that my future is getting even closer. Kent admissions test is on monday.
My friend is applying for journalism too, we have a couple of the same choices (Bournemouth and Nottingham Trent) so I have always been scared that she would get in to Bournemouth and I wouldn't. But today I was shocked when she opened up track and found that she had been rejected by Bournemouth. I have been worrying for weeks that I hadn't heard anything back from them and I still haven't, but after that I am taking the no reply as a positive, as it means that I haven't been rejected. I saw the look on her face as she read it out, I wanted to cry for her, she has had her heart set on Bournemouth. I just didn't know what to say. I didn't want to seem like I was bragging by saying to her that I still hadn't heard back, as it would not have been intentional if it had come across in that way. So I just sat there saying nothing, other than ask her if she was okay, and that I couldn't believe that she had been rejected as I genuinely believed she was going to be selected other than me; I am aware that I have not been selected myself yet, I have also not been rejected either.
So stress seems to be the word of the month for me right now. It creeps up everywhere. That's what you get for doing Alevels I suppose and applying for uni! Also the fact that I am trying to cram a whole English Literature A level in to one whole year!!
I had a meeting with my principle today, which was slightly intimidating. I don't know why I get so nervy around her, as whenever I have spoken to her she has been really nice, I suppose it's just because she is the 'big bad principle'. Everyone in the year has one, so she can check to see how we are getting on in our final year and how we are managing with our exams. She reassured me that with four a levels, that I am going to get my 340 ucas points (Bournemouth is my highest entry requirement) no bother, as I have 120 points from Art and design already secured.
I am doing a photo shoot this week (it was meant to be last week but myself and the models were ill), I am super super excited! I am going to be doing two. First is an Alice in Winter Wonderland themed shoot, which is going to be my absolute favourite, I have inflatable flamingos and everything! The second is going to be a slightly more gothic one, with photography of a church setting with my models in 'heavy' dark clothing. My brief is to create 4 different covers for ID magazine, with the theme of winter and has to represent 'high end fashion'. It is so exciting. I will post my photos on here once I have done the shoot, I would love feedback, as it all helps with my evaluation.

eeek!

Its finally out! Alfred Angelo's replica of Isabella Swan's dress came out yesterday!

I absolutely loved the whole twilight wedding, as I get so excited about weddings in general, so when I saw breaking dawn the other day I fell head over heels with the ceremony and the dress. 

I'd know about the replica coming out for a while, so eagerly kept checking up on the website, I was so disappointed to find it's only out in America, and something even more disappointing is that there is a competition to win the dress on the American site, not on the English/European. I never imagined myself liking a long sleeved gown; however since my love for Downton Abbey grew, as did that for vintage style dresses. The lace detailing is what makes me super excited too (sad or what?!) but its diviiiiiiiine! My dad thinks I am mad because over the past few months I keep revealing to him what my wedding will be like (he'll need to know how much he has to save up--I kid!)

day twelve (catch up).

dont cry about it.

I went to the twiathlon on thursday night, before the midnight screening of Breaking Dawn part one, it was amazing, I loved it so much! I have noticed that quite a few people are slating it, however I feel that they are being overly harsh towards it, yeah the birth scene was a tad long, but it needed that to build up the drama; as I am sure like myself, they were all sitting biting their nails praying for Bella. Kristen looked absolutely gorgeous and I loved her dress! It was such an emotional film, as there were a lot more witty elements to it, whilst still being combined with the heart wrenching parts too. I just cannot wait for the next part to come out!
So yeah I loved the film, but sitting in a cinema for what was over 11 hours meant one thing: EATING. No, not carrots sticks. Yes, crappy food. I am so annoyed with myself for letting myself go like I did.  I had so many sweets left over the next day I indulged in them too. I weighed myself today and I have put on 2.5/3 lbs ish. And yes I cried. I don't know if its because I am ill/stressed at the minute but I feel like an emotional wreck. I do know that I am so wrapped up in losing weight any +lb or maintain, means that I get so annoyed with myself, forgetting how well I have done so far.
I shouldn't let myself get upset over something so pathetic. I know that I am going to get back on track as from tomorrow and lose the weight that I had gained whilst enjoying myself. I am so excited to be going to my spin class on Monday.



Just joined twitter, so pls follow:
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sorry

again apologies for being absent recently, as well as the mountains of work I have had to do, I have also been quite ill lately. I have literally just set up my twitter account again, so please follow me @hollieack I am going to try and keep as up to date as possible on there. My apologies xxxxxx

Absent

I have been a bit quiet this week post wise, but this week has been so hectic in terms of school work it's been awful! I'm so stressed. And because I'm so stressed about it I can't seem to focus on doing each piece as I am thinking about the other!
Other than school work I haven't really been doing much, apart from going to my best friends birthday 'gathering, I think it's safe to say I had too much to drink and now worrying in case I said or did something I shouldn't have. She loved the presents we got her too, which is always good, as I hate buying presents in case the receiver doesn't like them. I'm uploading a photo(one of the 122 that were taken) of me and my gorgeous best friends.
I got an offer from Leeds trinity this eek and an interview for Kent, which is really good. I really want to hear back from Bournemouth as they are my first choice. One friend has received all 5 offers, I'm so jel it's unreal.

bff

It's my best friend's bday on friday and I am excited beyond belief. I want to get her something that she will like, it sounds bad, but I have no idea what to get her; it's because she has a varied taste and would not know where to begin. I suggested to some other friends to do a joint present (were getting her a bag) and the I might get her the new book by Cecelia Ahern as she is her favourite author. I'm worried in case she doesn't like the bag, I hate buying presents!
I am also going to make her a birthday cake! I think I am going to make a strawberry sponge with the butter icing that I used for the lemon and white chocolate cupcakes. I have been researching what cake to do and I think that this might be perfect, she did ask me a while ago to make the lemon and white chocolate cup cakes for her, but I think that this might be just as nice, or even nicer.
I'll do a post when I make it!

day eleven.

I took this photo last night, as me and some friends did our own firework display (scaryyy... it was fine, it was just a bit nerve wrecking without parents doing them). The photos are a bit rubbish as I took them on my BB which is incredibly slow, so the fireworks were disappearing just as the lens captured it. Anyhow, I had a hilarious time last night.

first time.

This post is to announce my first university reply! AHH!  

I have been selected for an admissions test for Nottingham Trent University on the 23rd November, I am so scared! 

Fitting room?

Today I went up town to spend some of my birthday money and I made some good savings woo!
I have to say fitting rooms are my pet peeve. I was trying on dresses in Dorothy Perkins and as I was drawing the curtain to, I noticed how see through the bloody thing was! I felt as if there was no point of it even being there! Also whilst I was getting changed to put my own clothes back on, a child wondered into my changing room, no not because they were looking for their parent, oh no. They were going round looking in the changing rooms! When their little head popped round I just sort of smiled awkwardly, whilst scrambling for my clothes, thinking they'd hop straight back out, but no just sort of lingered ( a bit like the sound of the mothers voice that was calling them from her changing room)... This is why changing rooms should have an assistant on at all times, like we do at river island. I find Dorothy Perkins terrible for it, there is never anybody there to help!
Another changing room I hate is New Look. eugh. My local one always stinks. I would say sick, but it has its own brand of smell that I cannot describe. Not only does it honk, but there is not an adequate space to put your belongings without half of your bum sticking out the changing room curtain (just me)? New look is another curtain offender, as this one's curtain crime is that the curtains are way too small for the rail, therefore leaving a peaking view either side. But I have to applaud it for being heavily lined... These fitting rooms are well manned, even if they are not always the most helpful. The fitting rooms only have one mirror-I wanna see my back!
H&M well, I have to say well done for the space arranging and instead of a curtain it has a door. However, all is not perfect in this fitting room, as the door does not have a lock and I am always petrified of having a Dorothy Perkins moment. Also the fitting rooms are never manned. Love the mirrors, giving you different angles.
Okay, so I may be a little biased here because I live for River Island as I work there, but I am going to be honest too. So the fitting rooms have a door and a lock which in my eyes are great, and there are two mirrors, although it would be nice to have one more... Its well lit, compared to Dorothy Perkins... It would be nice to have a little more space for my belongings, or maybe a little bench to prop them on. Also I know from serving on there myself, and being served, that the majority of the time there is always someone on the fitting room, if you do need any extra help.
I think it's important to have a pleasant experience in the fitting rooms as trying on new clothes is stressful enough without the added unnecessary ones too (such as it being way too hot!) as it can really put you off of that shopping experience.

Has anyone else had a bad fitting room experience?

day ten.

I think this photo was taken of me around 14-15 years ago

day nine.

I can't remember if I ever posted this or not, but many of you might not have noticed that this was my background, and an image that I took for my art project( inspired by Aubery Beardsley).

day eight.

a photo that makes you sad...
it makes me sad that my iphone 4s isn't here yet :(

Okay so after the celebrations that have taken place over the past week, I feel (and know) that I am going to put on a hell of a lot of weight this week (weigh in is Thursday). So I need to get strict as I want to lose all of the weight I have put on this week (and more) in order to look 'good' for my friends birthday next Friday. It just feels as if getting into the next stone bracket is taking ages and is a complete mission, but I know when I do, I will be so happy with myself.  I kinda feel my birthday 'treating', or better known as binging, is my lifestyle before I started dieting, so now I feel so guilty every time I eat which isn't good either.

para...

Today I went to the spa with my mum, I had a lovely day, it's not often that I get to spend that much time with just her. We decided to leave after lunch and on the way home she suggested going to the cinema when we got home as be both wanted to see contagion; however it wasn't on until 18:30 (current time 3pm) so we had to find another. When we got to the cinema we were set to go and see the help, but the time on the screen was different to what I had read on line, which was annoying, so we braved it to go and see paranormal activity 3. I think that the first one is scarier than the 3rd (haven't seen the second), and left feeling rather okay, but it wasn't until I came back to my dads to an empty house that I was literally so scared. I could hear noises coming from all around the house and I was really on edge. I hate scary films, even if they're not that scary I can never handle them, as today proved when I was clutching on to my mum for 'protection'. I wouldn't really rate it that well, to be honest, and have seen better films (including horror), so I wouldn't really recommend seeing it!
I have also had a thought of dying my hair dark brown with home dye like I used to, but the last time I got it done, it was done professionally and highlights were put in, so I'm not too sure how well the home dye would react. If any one has some suggestions it would be nice, as I am wanting to do it friday evening.

Birthday

I had such a lovely day yesterday and feel truly spoiled, thanks everyone! I honestly felt so special, although it kinda sucked that I was a school for the day; however today mummy is taking me for a treat day, woo!
I was given lots of money, pandora, I'm currently waiting for my iPhone 4s to arrive, perfume, twilight boxset and lots of Cath Kidston bits and bobs.
After school I went to my mums and literally ate utter rubbish, leaving me with terrible heart burn, something that I do get from my mother. Recipe for heart burn:
The only chocolate that I was bought was Lindt Lindor, which is my fave, and was also bought in ample amounts! I had a wee munch on that. Then we got a chinese which I ate way too much of, I kept thinking stop, but then I was also thinking it's my birthday I never get any chinese anymore because of the diet so keep going, which was a bad idea. I then had some white chocolate birthday cake, I felt so ill! All of this was nicely washed down by a bottle of rose. OUCHY!
So, yes despite the horrid heart burn I had an amazing time!
Thanks everyone! xo.

day seven.

I love this photo of us girlies at Chloe's birthday, we're all toppling over and it's a semi random shot, it makes me giggle.

day six.

whatever tickles your fancy.... well I'm a sucker for weddings and I have to say the Vogue photos from Miss Kate Moss' wedding were devine, she looked gorgeous.